You are ALL amazing, precious people to me. Seriously.
Thank you so much for the overwhelmingly sweet comments on my post Monday. And after finally telling everyone on my blog and on Facebook, it's feels REAL. And I'm freaking excited! :)
Before I get back into my regular posts though, I'm gonna get a tad serious up in here. Do y'all mind? I just want to share something that's been weighing heavily on me since I announced the news...
There are a lot of judgemental people out there.
And this sad fact makes me sick to my stomach and flat out ANGRY.
No, Ronnie and I are not married. Yes, this pregnancy was a surprise.
But that is no reason to think we don't deserve this baby. And it's no reason to constantly say that we better hurry up and get married now! Because there will NOT be a shotgun wedding, thank you very much. We have our reasons to still wait on marriage and we're totally fine with it!
My office has not acted excited about it (their beliefs aren't liking the unmarried thing either) and have not been treating me the way they've treated other preggos. We're a small office so I feel it. I feel how my boss has started ignoring me and making things so hard on me that I just KNOW he is trying to push me out of here. It's not a good time.
To add to it, I've been feeling SO much guilt because I know so many of my IRL friends (and even some of you) have been trying so hard for a baby and it hasn't happened yet. This breaks my heart and it makes me feel guilty that even though we weren't planning this, it still happened. Then, those same girls that have always been upset when others get pregnant, are now upset with me. Not even a "Congratulations" on Facebook or an e-mail. They're completely ignoring me now. But I know they're hurting and just hope they can find it in themselves to just be happy for others because I seriously do pray that everyone who wants to be a mom, will be. I know their time will come!
So if you've made it this far - thank you. I'm sorry for getting so real on y'all but I had to say it.
Ronnie and I have been over the moon about this baby but it feels like everyone around us is trying to make it stressful. And I'm normally not a praying person but I'm starting to change my tune. I just need to find some peace and learn to focus on the fact that it's just me, my fiance and our baby in this and as long as I have them, that's plenty happiness.
Thanks again for being there. I'm so grateful for you wonderful blog friends and the IRL friends/family that ARE excited for us. Because you know what? I am ALWAYS happy for others when something good comes their way...and that's the way it should be, right? Can't we all just get along?! :p
So next post - how I found out, how I told Ronnie and other HAPPY details... No more seriousness, y'all ;) xoxo