Momhood

May 3, 2012

I haven't been interested in blogging this week but felt the need to jump back in when reminded last night by Ronnie that I haven't blogged since last week. I so enjoy when he randomly checks my blog.

I should probably be a good mom and post my daughter's 2 month update right about now since she turned 2 months this past Saturday (holy shit!) but I can't because I haven't taken special 2 month pictures of her. I haven't even collected my thoughts enough to post all her milestones, weight, etc. But I will soon.

For now, let me share a bit of my life lately in momhood. (I promise it gets good, just read ;)

First I have to tell you that for the past week (weeks really) we've been in survival mode. Violet's acid reflux came back in full force last week and she screamed in pain after each feeding until she was completely hoarse. Saddest.thing.ever. The pediatrician finally decided that Violet has a milk allergy and needed to be on a special formula (Yes, I'm no longer breastfeeding. Yes, I have good reason so if you have questions, please ask.) Problem is, she HATES this new special formula. It smells like funkalicious Cheezeits that have been left out in 100 degree weather for at least 5 years and if I don't even want to smell it, how can we expect her to eat it?

We spent the past week trying to get a screaming, kicking child to choke down that nasty formula. We tried everything and Ronnie finally saved the day and found a ready made version of the formula a couple nights ago and she seems to have taken to this so much better. (Fingers crossed that I didn't just jinx it.)

Having this new formula in her and not causing her pain like her old formula, is no longer exacerbating the acid reflux and we're finally seeing signs of our happy baby being back again! And for that, I thank you 8 pound 6 oz newborn baby Jesus!

So that's that on the kid end. But in case this post wasn't long enough, I figure I could also tell you about the time (last Friday) that I had awful chills and a 104 fever so I immediately turned to Google which led me to believe I was currently in septic shock due to the IUD I had just had put in a couple days before. Surely I was going to die soon and how can I leave my 2 month old daughter without her mother?!

Ronnie couldn't take much more of my serious freak out (because he's the sane one and knew I couldn't possibly have that rare of an infection) so he took me to an emergency clinic to shut me up so they could figure out what was going on. I'm sure they laughed behind closed doors at me because I had no fever when I got there and none of the blood work indicated an infection or virus. They said I might have a viral infection and sent my ass home.

I went home feeling silly for worrying so much. Until I went to get Violet ready for bed time and I got another high fever and more chills. It continued on through Saturday when my parents finally said to bring over the baby so I wouldn't get her sick AND so I could rest.

I slept that day from about 11:30 am to oh, about 6 that night. And I never felt better in my life. I was just literally SICK and TIRED. Lack of sleep is a real killer, y'all. Or at least enough to make you feel like you're going to die.

So I'm sure you're all wondering what the hell any of this means.

Honestly, there is no point. But what I do know is being a mom is the shiz.

I've never felt stronger or more confident in my life. Somedays I feel like I literally can do anything. And you know why? Because I'm taking care of a sick infant, a sick self (most of the time), a stressed out student/fiance, a house, bills, a job and pets...and I'm kicking ass at it.

Sure my house isn't as clean as it used to be and I can barely find the energy to get dressed in the morning but I do it. I do it because I love my little girl like I've never loved before. Having her has turned my world upside down and I wouldn't have it any other way.

14 comments:

Megg Joosten said...

I'm sorry she has been having a hard time! But I'm glad you found a formula that works! (I think all formulas smell nasty personally, but I'm sure breast milk isn't all that better, especially since lovely things like onions permeate it.)

Lauren said...

Praying for you guys, she is too darn cute :-) You are doing an awesome job being a mommy!

Krystal said...

Awww! Well I hope the new formula works! You are doing great! =]

Lauren H. Edmondson said...

love this post (and the Ricky Bobby baby jesus reference). hopefully that new formula does the trick, be praying for ya'll!

Cori H. said...

I'm glad that y'all found a formula that is working better for her now. Praying that it stays that way! Lack of sleep and stress can definitely make your body go wacko. I've been sick like that before. It's horrible! I'm so glad you were able to get some rest and that you're feeling better!

Jean said...

So glad you're feeling better. It's strange how your temp went up like that.

Moms are real superheroes, they do real wonders. And your mom was so sweet for taking V while you rested. So sweet <3

Amanda said...

Love her little face, I can't believe shes two months already!!! That sucks about her reflex, I can't even imagine! Don't forget to take care of yourself. Violet needs a healthy Mama.

Ashlee Miller said...

That is so hard when you can't make them feel better! So good to hear Violet is doing better! She is so precious!

Cole said...

I sure as heck wouldn't want to drink formula that smelled like expired Cheez-its! Way to go for Ronnie on finding a ready made one!

I hope little Miss V is feeling much better and you are too!

gina said...

You have an awesome attitude about all the yucky stuff! Keep smiling...all will be well soon!

Heather said...

Poor girl! I hope she's feeling better soon! And I'm glad you didn't leave her motherless. ;)

Miranda said...

glad both of you are doing better! motherhood really strips you down into survival mode but it is worth it. the first 6 months of my sons life i maybe got dressed 1 day out of the week. other things just become more important!

Asha said...

Aww I can't imagine how badly you needed that sleep but thank God that was the only reason you were feeling sick.

p.s. - OMG it's already been TWO months?! Time flies when you are having fun, haha!

Mrs. W. said...

I'm so sorry to hear both you and Violet have had a little bit of a tough time in recent days, but you ARE kicking ass girl! Way to go! I admire your confidence - I still feel like I don't have a clue what I'm doing, lol. :)

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