Six months ago today, I became a mom.
Some days I still can't believe that I've been given this precious child to take care of and love forever. I don't deserve her! Even all these months later I still have moments when I think to myself, she's MINE. I'm a MOM. She's my DAUGHTER.
Everyone told us time would fly by and I wish I could say they were exaggerating.
I'm a sentimental person normally but who knew how much worse it would be when I became a mom. Sometimes I really would like to curl up in bed and sob over just how quickly time is flying by. Who am I kidding here? I've done that a few times.
I cry out of happiness because I can see that we're doing our job (we're trying our best!!) and that she's learning and growing as she should be but I also cry because I'm mourning. I mourn the loss of the baby she was six months ago, a month ago, even just the day before. She changes so much each day and more heartbreaking, it's as if just this past weekend she grew and changed more than we've ever seen! The six month mark is a pretty big deal apparently. It's like we're dealing with a mature infant all of a sudden! ha
In my pre-baby life I felt like I was just going through the motions and Ronnie would get on me for not living in the moment more. Thank goodness I snapped out of it and can understand the magnitude of this time in our lives and how it won't always be this way because I really do cherish every snuggle, every sound and face made, every scent, and every little giggle. I can only imagine how fast her 1st birthday will get here and just typing that gives me the biggest lump in my throat.
Being a mom was never at the top of my life's to-do list but it happened and I'm so grateful it did. I wouldn't give up this life with my amazing fiance and our precious child for anything.
We love you so so much, tootie pie! Just cool it on the growing so fast thing ok? ;)