I may be bad but I'm perfectly good at it

I had been doing so well for over a month and then Fiesta came...and I was "forced" to blow my entire diet.

I pigged out for 3 days straight on burgers, fries, gorditas, kettle corn, beer, a corn dog, more beer...and I was in heaven. Fattie heaven, that is...Then Monday came and Ronnie and I said "this is for sure our last bad meal" {I've lost count of how many times we've said that phrase around here}...So we went to live it up for our "last meal"...We had our favorite burger ever, The Cheddar Cheeze from Chris Madrid's and I'm still salivating at the thought of it...It's ooey gooey cheesy and probably the best worst thing you'll ever eat.

{oh you KNOW I took a picture.}

{and you KNOW Ronnie got mad at me for keeping evidence of our horrible cheating.}

Then came Tuesday...then Wednesday and as each day passed, I talked myself into believing that it was "just a break" and I'd start it up again tomorrow. It's always freaking tomorrow. Hello, waiting until tomorrow is what got me to this point! I'm a damn good eater but I don't know when to stop. And if you are struggling or have struggled with obesity, you know what I mean. It's not setting an alarm to eat a tub of ice cream in the middle of the night kinda addiction, it's almost like in the moment your brain completely forgets that healthy food options even exists. It's just way too easy to always say yes to the bad food.

Just writing about the food I ate makes me want to hide in shame but I know if there's any place I can go and not be judged, it's my own blog! I'm glad I'm writing it down though because it makes me realize yet again just how important healthy eating is. So today, I tried. And I ate much better and waaay less. I'm actually within my calorie limit and as long as I do good with dinner too, I'm golden. I'm feeling less bloated today and I LOVE that feeling. I've missed that in the past week.

I leave on a work trip next Sunday and I had grand plans of buying all kinds of cute clothes, at least 2 sizes smaller..But is that going to happen? No. I'm down 1 size and while that's great and all, it's not good enough. I didn't try as hard as I could've in the past month and I totally freaking gave up in the last week. I need to step it up, y'all! It's already 90 degrees here and I NEED to be in tank top shape for the summer {I hate my chunky arms FYI}...So anyway, here's to hitting publish and keeping myself freaking accountable. I'm excited to start kicking ass FOR REAL this time!

Thanks for listening :D Hope y'all have had an awesome Thursday!!