April 16, 2012

Life lately.

Wow. It's been forever and a day since I blogged. When I think about that fact it actually makes me really sad because I had high hopes for keeping track of all the little details about Violet's first few weeks. However, motherhood had something else in store for me. I was blessed with an easy pregnancy but a not-so-easy child. I was also "blessed" with some good old fashioned bad luck. But I'm not saying this to bitch and I hope I don't come off as ungrateful because this is my life and I am ecstatic about having our baby girl. Just wanted to fill y'all in on what's been going on!

First off, our poor girl has had acid reflux issues since about week 3 and we had finally gotten it under control with meds (I hate that she even needs to be on them!) but last week the reflux came back in full force and she hasn't slept for more than an hour at a time. The rest of the time she's squirming in discomfort and/or screaming. The pediatrician has upped her med dosage a little due to Violet's normal weight gain so we're hoping and praying that this comforts her problems again SOON! It's the worst, most helpless feeling to see your baby screaming in such pain knowing there's no immediate solution.

Secondly, wouldn't you know I began to have my own acid reflux issues. For the first time ever in my life! The pain in my chest and back got so unbearable I even had to go to the ER a couple of weeks ago. They told me gallbladder issues are very common after pregnancy and while I don't have gall stones, I'm very susceptible to acid reflux now. I now have to be on meds myself and have to stay away from all kinds of good food :/ But you know, that's probably a good thing.

And lastly, our dog Niles (our first baby) injured his back while I was in the hospital after delivery and the day we brought Violet home from the NICU we noticed his back legs were going limp. He would kind of fall down and had a hard time walking around for long -  we immediately knew something was wrong. Since we didn't have the funds for treatment, Ronnie's aunt who is part owner of a veterinary office in Houston offered to take him in. So Ronnie took him up there and they kept him for 3 weeks and tried all kinds of therapy but his condition only worsened and he has since lost all function of his back legs. Turns out he has a degenerative disc issue so his back is now very sensitive to even more injury. We picked him up last week and poor boy needs to use a wheel cart now and while it was cute at first to see him wheeling around, it's just plain sad and breaks out heart. We miss our rambunctious boy and hope to see him recover one day (which is still a possibility with lots of rehab!).

So to say these last few weeks have been stressful is the understatement of the year. There's been lots of crying (on my end), lots of petty arguing but lots of making up and having good long talks about the future. We're a strong couple and we've made it through all kinds of tough times so I know we can easily get through this. My maternity leave wasn't full of lollipops and glitter like I thought it would be - dressing up our daughter and having photo shoots all day, taking her to lunches with friends, taking her on shopping trips with me, etc. But I was lucky enough to be there with her in her time of need, take her to doctor's appointments and comfort her and bond with her. And that's all I could have asked for. I know one day we'll get more than a couple hours of sleep a night and our daughter will eventually be a happy little girl who's not in pain.

Today, I'm back at work and dying a little inside because I'm not with my girl. But to be honest, I could use the breather. I know it will make me a better (less stressed out) mom and Violet deserves that. Life is still good no matter the stress and I know our daughter will now be in great hands with her Maw Maw (Ronnie's mom) and when she's occasionally with my mom.

I just hope you can understand and forgive my lack of commenting but I'll be back soon..and will overload you with some Violet cuteness!! Here's a few for now ;)






19 comments:

Holly said...

Welcome back!

Violet is just too precious. I love all of her hair. My Mom always told me that I was practically bald until I was like 2! I bet Violet will always have beautiful hair!

Simply Kelly Blog said...

Your family photo looks beautiful. Good for you, for keeping it real what motherhood has been like. Your daughter is precious and there will be many more good memories to come.

Lauren said...

Glad to have you back girl :-) Sorry to hear about your pains recently for you and baby, thinking of you!

Dana Richards said...

This doesn't always sound like the most genuine thing to say, but I just want you to know that I'm praying for you and your little family. I hurts my heart to hear that you guys are having bumps in the road, but I know that these pains will eventually subside. I think that all you can do is be thankful for the great things that you do have, and it looks like you're doing a great job at that :) I really appreciate you keeping it real about how these past couple of weeks have been instead of sugar coating it, or avoiding it. You're an awesome mama and I'm proud of you!!

Cori H. said...

I'm sorry you've had a rough few weeks, my friend! On the plus side, you got a beautiful baby girl out of the deal! Seriously, I think she gets cuter and cuter with every new pic. I hope the new medicine will start kicking in soon to give her (and her momma) some relief! Good luck with going back to work. I know it must be hard to get back into the routine especially when the routine is quite different now. Great to hear from you! Thinking of you and your sweet family!

Sarah said...

She is such a cutie. Look at all that hair!! I hope life gets easier for you :)

Amanda said...

No wonder you haven't been blogging... life has certainly been busy for you lately! Hopefully things calm down, Violet feels better, you feel better, and Niles feels better. That's a lot to have going on in just a few short weeks... btw, Violet is beautiful!

Suze said...

Wow you have had quite a time! Well I'm glad you're back and it sounds like you have a really good attitude. I hope you and Violet start feeling better soon!

Cole said...

I'm so glad you got to blog about all the goings on in your life. I'm here if you ever need to vent, love!

Jenna said...

Congratulations! She is beautiful!

I hope you both start feeling better asap!

Miranda said...

she is so adorable! hope things look up for you and baby violet!

Heather said...

She is so beautiful!

Meg O. said...

I'm sorry that your maternity leave wasn't exactly the best experience for you. I can't even imagine how hard that would be. I got so blessed with an easy kid but I know that means the next one is going to be a doozie!!!! You are such a great mama and do not doubt that for one second! Praying miss Violet gets through her reflux issues. Poor little thing!!

Melissa said...

Violet is adorable, i am sorry to hear she is having acid reflux and that you are too! Hope you both get to feeling better VERY soon. Poor Niles i sure hope he can recover with lots of rehab, poor guy! Here is to a quick recovery and health to all in your family!

Mrs. W. said...

I'm so sorry you've had a rough few weeks and didn't have the maternity leave you were hoping for. It really sounds like you've had quite a time! I'm sorry about the reflux (both for you and Violet) and your poor puppy! It sounds like you're staying positive though, so that's great. And that girl is just as cute as a button! I adore her!

Jean said...

i think we're all understanding how life can be as a mom now. i ain't mad at you however i do miss your silliness! love reading your blog when i get home from work :) love it even more that you show this cuteness around :)

Courtney said...

I don't think you're complaining at all! I'm sorry you've had such a rough beginning of your life as a family of 3. I will continue to hope and pray things turn around for you. V is just precious and I know you love her dearly. You and Ronnie are doing great!! Keep it up mama :)

Tricia said...

It sounds like despite adversity you are definitely pulling through and getting stronger. Just repeat after me, "I am a mom, I have given birth and therefore am superhuman, I am awesome." Because it's true.

Christina said...

I’m so sorry you both have reflux! I had it so bad when I was pregnant (which is why I have all my trachea problems) and I’m still on medication for it. How do they even test for it on a baby? You poor girls! I’m so sorry about your fur baby too! What a tough few weeks. I’m glad you are still counting your blessings though. It’s hard to do in the middle of everything! You are the cutest little family, keep doing what you're doing. I need to pinch V’s cheeks asap!

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