Wow. It's been forever and a day since I blogged. When I think about that fact it actually makes me really sad because I had high hopes for keeping track of all the little details about Violet's first few weeks. However, motherhood had something else in store for me. I was blessed with an easy pregnancy but a not-so-easy child. I was also "blessed" with some good old fashioned bad luck. But I'm not saying this to bitch and I hope I don't come off as ungrateful because this is my life and I am ecstatic about having our baby girl. Just wanted to fill y'all in on what's been going on!
First off, our poor girl has had acid reflux issues since about week 3 and we had finally gotten it under control with meds (I hate that she even needs to be on them!) but last week the reflux came back in full force and she hasn't slept for more than an hour at a time. The rest of the time she's squirming in discomfort and/or screaming. The pediatrician has upped her med dosage a little due to Violet's normal weight gain so we're hoping and praying that this comforts her problems again SOON! It's the worst, most helpless feeling to see your baby screaming in such pain knowing there's no immediate solution.
Secondly, wouldn't you know I began to have my own acid reflux issues. For the first time ever in my life! The pain in my chest and back got so unbearable I even had to go to the ER a couple of weeks ago. They told me gallbladder issues are very common after pregnancy and while I don't have gall stones, I'm very susceptible to acid reflux now. I now have to be on meds myself and have to stay away from all kinds of good food :/ But you know, that's probably a good thing.
And lastly, our dog Niles (our first baby) injured his back while I was in the hospital after delivery and the day we brought Violet home from the NICU we noticed his back legs were going limp. He would kind of fall down and had a hard time walking around for long - we immediately knew something was wrong. Since we didn't have the funds for treatment, Ronnie's aunt who is part owner of a veterinary office in Houston offered to take him in. So Ronnie took him up there and they kept him for 3 weeks and tried all kinds of therapy but his condition only worsened and he has since lost all function of his back legs. Turns out he has a degenerative disc issue so his back is now very sensitive to even more injury. We picked him up last week and poor boy needs to use a wheel cart now and while it was cute at first to see him wheeling around, it's just plain sad and breaks out heart. We miss our rambunctious boy and hope to see him recover one day (which is still a possibility with lots of rehab!).
So to say these last few weeks have been stressful is the understatement of the year. There's been lots of crying (on my end), lots of petty arguing but lots of making up and having good long talks about the future. We're a strong couple and we've made it through all kinds of tough times so I know we can easily get through this. My maternity leave wasn't full of lollipops and glitter like I thought it would be - dressing up our daughter and having photo shoots all day, taking her to lunches with friends, taking her on shopping trips with me, etc. But I was lucky enough to be there with her in her time of need, take her to doctor's appointments and comfort her and bond with her. And that's all I could have asked for. I know one day we'll get more than a couple hours of sleep a night and our daughter will eventually be a happy little girl who's not in pain.
Today, I'm back at work and dying a little inside because I'm not with my girl. But to be honest, I could use the breather. I know it will make me a better (less stressed out) mom and Violet deserves that. Life is still good no matter the stress and I know our daughter will now be in great hands with her Maw Maw (Ronnie's mom) and when she's occasionally with my mom.
I just hope you can understand and forgive my lack of commenting but I'll be back soon..and will overload you with some Violet cuteness!! Here's a few for now ;)