I just haven't been feeling the blogging thing. I get discouraged when it starts to feel clique-ish and of course, being the anti kiss-ass that I am, I'm left out of the cliques. Which is fine because like the rest of you I do have a life outside of blog world and being part of the clique doesn't make or break me. Obviously.

But when I start to feel like I'm blogging for others and then get butt hurt when I feel like I'm not liked by some people, I need to step back and take a look at myself.

I'm nearly 30 years old for crying out loud.

I'm done with impressing people. Hell, my fiance's still around and I've stopped trying to impress him looong ago. ha! So I've decided I need to get back on track with my blog.

It's time to bring the focus back to ME. Back to my family. Back to MY LIFE. That was the intention of starting this blog after all.

It used to be so fun to just write about my life and then a few months later go back and read through it. I just don't feel like that's been my focus lately! I've seen posts just like this one on some of your blogs so I know I'm not alone in this and I hope the rest will understand.

Sure I'll join in the link-ups because I have fun with them but fair warning, just as I posted on Facebook recently (those of y'all who are friends have seen this I'm sure!), get ready for me to post the hell out of some Violet pictures in the near future. I was in a completely sleep deprived state her first two months and didn't post about her like I wanted to. I want to be able to look back at my blog one day and have those memories so I need to get on that.

Thanks for sticking with me and being a follower and a friend! It means more than you know!

:)

To vent or not to vent?

I realize this is MY blog and I can write about whatever the hell I want to...but I'm struggling with posting something I just wrote up this morning. I want my blog to remain simple and carefree but I have issues I've dealt with for a long time and sometimes just really want to vent.

I have 2 real life best friends but sadly, I can't really talk to them. Only one of the 2 really understands the situation but she's in a new relationship and I don't want to bother her with this right now. Plus we didn't even talk for about 1 year and a half and just recently reconnected so i DEFINITELY don't want to bog her down with my drama right now. The other best friend is sadly becoming less and less of a understanding person and because of this, honestly is becoming less of a best friend. She is the person who "knows everything", even while not understanding or having any clue what it's like to be in your situation. I just want to vent sometimes and not get advice that has a slight undertone of judgement, you know what I mean? Or maybe I'm just crazy and not making any sense. lol.

Either way, I need to vent but I'm afraid of coming off too needy, or crazy, or just flat out depressing. I'm torn. Would it scare all of you away?